I didn't exactly plan not to go to church today. That would be a sin on top of a sin, to consciously plan to skip church and then do it. And I didn't do that. But when at T minus 30 minutes and counting I was out dealing with escape artist chickens, I realized that I would be late, and the temptation came: It doesn't matter; indeed, just skip the whole thing.
And then I dropped the feed bucket and ran for the house to get dressed, because I know that when I don't want to go to church is the day that I really need to go to church. (Which, honestly, is pretty much every week lately. What's up with that?)
I arrived only a few minutes late -- in time for the sacrament, even. (Hooray!) I ignored the bishop's wry grin as I walked all the way up to the second row to sit with my prompt and halo-clad children.
And sure enough, near the end of the High Councilor's talk came the scripture nugget that I needed. I spent the remaining two hours of the block poring over scriptures, writing in my church notebook, and completely ignoring the hard-won lessons prepared by the Sunday School and Relief Society teachers. (Does that make me a bad person?)
I'm glad I went today. I really needed that boost.
What? Oh... you want to know what the scripture nugget was?
Promise not to laugh?
Cross your heart and hope to die, stick a needle in your eye?
Okay. Here goes:
Though he were a Son,
yet learned he obedience by
the things which he suffered.
And on the opposite page:
For we have not an high priest
which cannot be touched
with the feeling of our infirmities;
but was in all points tempted
like as we are,
yet without sin.
Let us therefore come boldly
unto the throne of grace,
That we may obtain mercy,
and find grace to help
in time of need.
There was given to me
a thorn in the flesh,
The messenger of Satan
to buffet me,
lest I should be exalted above measure.
For this thing
I besought the Lord thrice,
that it might depart
And he said unto me,
My grace is sufficient for thee:
for my strength is made perfect
Most gladly therefore
will I rather glory in my infirmities,
that the power of Christ may rest
(2 Corinthians 12: 7-9)