Well, here we go. Peer pressure at last has induced my leap into the world of blogging. I've resisted for a number of reasons, one being that I don't have anything interesting to say. Also, why give myself yet another reason to sit at the computer when I have so many other things I should be doing?
Should. There's that word again. I thought I had purged it from my vocabulary, but it just keeps sneaking back in when I'm not watching. Should, that root of guilt, that self-defeating four-letter word plus two that keeps me from really enjoying life. Once upon a time I thought that "shoulding" myself would motivate me to do all the things I wasn't doing. But it didn't. "Should" only made me feel more of a failure for not doing them. I was slow to learn that guilt is not an effective motivator.
Let's try an experiment. In the place of should, I will henceforth substitute the word "want". As in: "I want to mow the lawn tomorrow," and "I want to go jogging after dropping Megan off at kindergarten," and "I want to clean the kitchen and mop the floor." By saying "want" instead of "should" perhaps I can trick my subconscious into actually wanting to do all the things I procrastinate in favor of more leisurely pursuits (like blogging).
Check back later for the results of this psychotic, er, I mean, psychology experiment.